life frusterations...

Before nursing school ......

Ok well lets just say life is never easy there's always a challenge on the horizon. However I 've seemed to hit every pothole in the road. Oh well at least the end is in sight right? Well yes if i pass all my classes and manage to keep my marriage going. Seems simple right ? Well wait a minute, have you ever tried to juggle work, nursing school, family, friends and a marriage? It all looked easier before i was living what I so called the dream that has turned into the curse of nursing school. I mean I'm forever grateful that I got into school and have managed to be successful at it for the last year and half. However, I'm burned out tired and wish i could quit life all together. Too bad its not an option. So I get up everyday tell myself you just have to make it through today don't think about the future focus on the present and conqure this venture one day at a time so far I have 82 days till graduation. Lets just pray to god i make it to the end. I know I will its just seemingly impossible task to conquer nursing school, alas I must.

So Here I sit focusing on the day at hand and wishing i was able to fast forward a year and just be a nurse already. I'd like to go on vacation, buy a house and have a kid by this time next year. We'll see if that comes to pass along with bailing myself outta some serious school loan debt for attending a private school for the last two years ouch it hurts to even think about my bank account. Oh yeah and the biggest thing I want is my life back is that too much to ask... sick of being SUCON's slave for the last two years. I wanna start my life.. I wanna be happy again and not always be in a fowl mood... I wanna be me again....

After nursing school ..... feeling like a zombie.. during finals week ...